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Sticking my finger down my throat,
I swallowed an entire bottle of them.
I realize life is worth living.
I don't want to fucking die.
I just need to vomit and I'll be better.
They've already been absorbed, I'm screwed.
I don't want to go to the hospital.
Where's my fucking phone?  It's just three numbers.
I can feel my heart rate slowing down
Get excited, raise that blood pressure.
and my extremities are going numb.
They're just cold, rub them a lot.
Back to the wall, ass on the ground, unmoving.
Get up!  Dance!  Punch something!  Anything!
The darkness takes me and I have one last thought:
I only thought I wanted to die, I swear.
The title says everything. Sometimes it is a cry for help that ends up being the last cry you ever make.

A video recording of this piece can be found here: vertigoart1.blogspot.com/2014/…
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Melanie-J-Howle Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
submitted to a group im in hope thats cool with you ,you just have to except if you want it there .
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Melanie-J-Howle Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Really something to think about .
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Ang3lsDrumSticks Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2011
This gave me goosebumps, and that's a good thing. So tragically beautiful Bravo!
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VertigoArt Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Professional Writer
thank you very much
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alittlebitoffaith Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011
very true. i like this altho it's sad i like sad peoms cuz it seems more realistic
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persephus Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
This is extremely powerful. It's interesting because I think you and have a lot in common as far as wanting to end it goes. I can't tell you how much this piece hit me. It's scary...
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Zeiphex Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow, that is so chilling, it gives me the creeps. Very honest and well written. Also, I wish you the best of luck in your life, keep on fighting :)
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franlovesmjj Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011  Student General Artist
Wow, this is amazing, I love the last line, specially :)
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VertigoArt Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011  Professional Writer
Thank you for taking the time to read it.
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franlovesmjj Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011  Student General Artist
You're welcome :)
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Wordotopia Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
I've been where you are in this poem...

Just understand ans nod in silence...


Take care of you! Even if it is hard sometimes to do so...

:hug:
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rockabells Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
gives me the creeps a little
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VertigoArt Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2011  Professional Writer
me too
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12redroses Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2011
I really like this. My favorite part is the very last line.
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VertigoArt Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2011  Professional Writer
somedays are like that. otherdays I really do want to.
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12redroses Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011
Well don't go through with it. I know I'm not goin through what you are goin through, but I've had my own issues and there were days I really wanted to too. I finally broke down and went to the doctor cuz I knew something was wrong with me and I needed help.
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VertigoArt Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011  Professional Writer
Doctors are not something i am unfamiliar with. I am on my sixth psych in two years.
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12redroses Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011
Is anything helping?
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VertigoArt Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011  Professional Writer
will and determination, when I have it.
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rockabells Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
at least you HAVE the determination... at least there seems to exist a part of you that is willing to fight, and this is worth a lot!
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